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January 18, 2007
Looking for Comfort
Some days, when I can't find comfort anywhere, I become overwhelmed with the thought that others cannot find comfort either.
I think about what my children need when they get hurt. They need me to pick them up and hold them tight, and say something along the lines of, "That must have hurt so much..." At this point, for some reason, they cry a great heart wrenching cry from the depths of their heart. While they are crying I find myself saying, "I am so sad that you are hurt...I wish I could take the pain away...go ahead and cry, because tears wash your heart."
I look into their tearful eyes, and kiss their soft, salty cheeks. I whisper to them that I love them, that I am so happy to be their mommy, and that I will hold them for as long as they'd like.
I have found that I am longing for comfort but can not find it.
I need--desperately need--to cry. But I can't. I just can't. If ever my eyes tear up, something inside of me stops the tears. I don't know why.
And this is where I think about writing so much more, but a sense of self-preservation keeps my hands from typing out those words.
That is all for tonight.
Posted by darby on 06:14 PM | Comments (9)
January 12, 2007
no more logging in
OK, we're trying out a new filter here, so you don't have to log in anymore to leave comments. Hopefully this will. Everyone chime in and leave a message and get the Darbster to post. There is a ton of stuff going on with her musically these days.
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