I have decided to write about the PMS Song first, because it is the first song that I wrote. I wrote it when I was 17 and in a state of hormonal upheaval, hence the name. Fortunately, that can be a time of intense creativity ...you know, aligning myself with the power of the moon and everything.

I remember sitting at the piano and thinking to myself, "What if I was fooling everyone around me...and I came across as an innocent and kind young girl, but really I was a psycho? And I lured some dude into a relationship..." I think I had just won the Christian Character Award at my high school, Wilmington Christian School. I remember thinking, "these people have no idea what kind of thoughts run through my head..."

I'm just remembering this as I write: I had also just seen the movie Unlawful Entry...which, by the way, disturbed me as well... There was this scene in the movie where the psycho cop chopped up this woman's best friend and stuffed her in the coat closet. And I couldn't get over what a brutal and cruel thing that was.

But when I was a teenager, I mostly dealt with anything painful in a really sarcastic and flippant way, so I just wrote a song from the perspective of one of the scariest kinds of people of all...the kind who look really kind on the outside and are really calculating on the inside.

I wrote the original music to sound like a creepy music box-waltz type thing...again, the sound of innocence and the content of ....well, a psychotic bitch, really.

Or, as my mom described the current version, "A Merry-Go-Round Ride gone awry..."

OK, here are the lyrics:

Don't you think it's kind of funny how we're one in the same
How whenever we're together we're playing some game
Or we're singing some song as we dance in the rain, Lai lai lai...

Do you ever think I'm too good to be true
Why do I do all the nice things I do
Well, the witch fattened Hansel before he was stew, lai lai lai

I'd just like to say that violence of any kind bothers me so much that if I really think about how cruel people can be to each other, it sends me into that same dark place described in the movie entry from yesterday. But this is one of the ways that I deal with that kind of intense idea.